Monday, August 25, 2014

remission

I have moved on, I promise you
But like a beaten dog, I cower still
It was a long cycle, I suffered through
And I’m still feeling the effects

I want to trust you, I mean that
But understand I’m lacking it
I look at you but see his lies, shining through-
(So please be sensitive)

This elimination, termination of these lingering feelings
Is in order, to be unbiased and nurture our trusting
This separation, delegation of a new kind of feeling
Has been tainted and tested by the dark in my closet

He’s my cancer, in remission
My walls built up, my hair ripped out
Then you walked in and consoled me
But it often creeps back in
(So please be sensitive)

This elimination, termination of these lingering feelings
Is in order, to be unbiased and nurture our trusting
This separation, delegation of a new kind of feeling
Has been tainted and tested from the dark in my closet

He’s such a sickness, our ultimate nightmare
He’s like a python, with unpliable constriction
Please be my treatment, and help me transition
To put a stop on this ultimate remission

This elimination, termination of these lingering feelings
Is in order, to be unbiased and nurture our trusting
This separation, delegation of a new kind of feeling
Has been tainted and tested from the dark in my closet
from the dark in my closet…

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

East Coast Dreams

City of wonder
City of ancestry
I’m in love with your history
Buildings that tower
Buildings that breathe
I come to you and believe in-

East coast dreams,
East coast needs,
I crave your jazz melody
I want your cultural identity

Streets that wander
Streets with a pulse
I’d come to you to get lost
People are brothers
People are resilient
I get lost in your brilliance in-

East coast dreams,
East coast needs,
I crave your jazz melody
I want your cultural identity

Creator of liberties
Bestow onto me
All of your possibilities
As I run eastward-
Toward your welcoming city

East coast dreams,
East coast needs,
I crave your jazz melody
I want your cultural identity

Sunday, June 29, 2014

i dreamt about my ex


last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.
last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.

and I woke up- and I brushed it off, I walked it off
went about my day, I went about my day

it didn’t take long before the thought crept in
got my wheels turning, digging and uprooting

last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.
last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.

and I woke up, but the dream goes on, carries on
our fantasies replay in my mind, spinning on rewind

so now I reevaluate what went on, how we went wrong
thoughts and energy that shouldn’t live on

last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.
last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.

I was in your arms again
you held on tight-
we looked into our eyes again
passion filled
I went in for a kiss
and I woke up
I woke up-

last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.
last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.

Monday, April 7, 2014

lose, lose

you and I dived right in
picked up the pace
with no time to waste

But why can’t we accept our feelings
I’m constantly in healing
While you yearn for a freeing

(I’ll be your prophet without a profit)

it’s a lose, lose
it’s not what I choose
And I wish you would meet me half way
it’s a lose, lose
I’m not that amused
At this game that your making me play

So I feel lost and betrayed
This borderline psychosis
Needs to go away
Cause you are cold and intact
As you make your prognosis
And I follow suit

(I’m a puppet and you hold my strings)

it’s a lose, lose
it’s not what I choose
I wish you would meet me half way
it’s a lose, lose
I’m not that amused
At this game that your making me play

so if I spill my heart and give it my all
you’ll tell me im too clingy
so If i tone it down and adjust my approach
you’ll think I’m not invested

it’s a lose, lose
it’s not what I choose
So please meet me half way
it’s a lose, lose
I’m not that amused

At this game that your making me play

Friday, February 28, 2014

for you

I over analyze as I fantasize
Day dreaming, about you
I reflect and dissect on
My past dates before you

I know that my experience warrants some good
I’ve been tested, tried and unglued

I’m sorry I didn’t hold out, for you
I promise to check my baggage, for you
I’ll abandon my fears, for you
I’ll be nothing but great, for you

I find great importance in the balance
Of mutual progression
I’ve collected and perfected
This new outlook for you

I know that my experience warrants some good
I’ve been tested, tried and unglued
Becoming a better version of me
So that I could be with you-

I’ll be versatile, for you
I won’t holdback, for you
There’s no passive aggression, for you
I’ll be nothing but great, for you

This investment of energy
Ensures my heart, won’t be in jeopardy
To see things, so clearly
Ensures this love won’t end prematurely

I won’t shut down, for you
I’ll stay secure, for you
I’ll open up my family, for you
Because I know you’d the same, for me
I know you’d do the same, for me

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

filter

you lacked the confidence, your crooked smile
your blinding aura and i was lured in
your false innocence, your fake swagger
it’s like i’d fallen into quicksand

my lack of experience, you had me wide eyed
this lethal combo had its timeline
my resilience and my demeanor
kept my head above the sand

but you gave the greatest gift you could to me
vision in a way i couldn't see until you broke me

i want to thank you for this filter, a way to weed out your type
you gave me the best assurance, a way to see through their hype

a new prospect, and the mold is filled
familiar signs, a big red flag
there’s no difference, you’re one in the same
but my history won’t repeat itself

you gave the greatest gift you could to me
vision in a way i couldn't see until you broke me

i want to thank you for this filter, a way to weed out your type
you gave me the best assurance, a way to see through their hype

these glasses you gave to me
enabled me, brought parity
and now i can see
through this divine clarity

i want to thank you for this filter, a way to weed out your type
you gave me the best assurance, a way to see through their hype
i want to thank you for this filter, now i know to trust my gut
you gave me reassurance, a way to see through their front

Thursday, January 23, 2014

fifteen stories

At 7:00am you made your bed
Thoughts racing inside your head
With every step you'd recollect
Your misfortune and neglect

At 8:00am our paths crossed
And at that moment all was lost
You on the ledge; helpless
Me on the ground; hopeless

Your mind was made there's no going back
Salvation in the form of black

Fifteen stories and you jumped to your glory
Seeking out something that you couldn't find
Fifteen stories and you jumped toward forgiveness,
Your new found peace and happiness

At 10:00pm I still reflect
Contemplate and dissect
What brought you to the ledge
Strong enough to push you over the edge

Your mind was made there's no going back
Salvation in the form of black

Fifteen stories and you jumped to your glory
Seeking out something that you couldn't find
Fifteen stories and you jumped toward forgiveness,
Your new found peace and happiness

You've affected me in a way I can't explain
And I don't even know your name
You've affected me in a way I can't explain
And I don't even know your name

Fifteen stories and you jumped to your glory
Seeking out something that you couldn't find
Fifteen stories and you jumped toward forgiveness,
Your new found peace and happiness