Wednesday, May 6, 2015

i cant stop thinking about you




You had my heart racing (racing)
Right from the start, right from the start
You got my mind spinning (spinning)
Lost in deep thought, lost in deep thought

You’re an easy rider, big smiler
I can hear the horns, feel the drums
Like a parade in my stomach

I can’t stop, I can’t stop thinking about you.
I can’t stop, I can’t stop thinking about you.
About you. About you.

You got my knees shaking (shaking)
Weak from the start, weak from the start
You hold my thoughts captive (captive)
With such a firm grip, such a firm grip

I feel your laughter, an old soul
You're a free spirit drawn my way
Come dance in my corner

I can’t stop, I can’t stop thinking about you.
I can’t stop, I can’t stop thinking about you.
About you. About you.

Midday dreams, late night philosophy
I look in your eyes, the look in your eyes
Like the ocean depths to explore
Dark and unknown

I can’t stop, I can’t stop thinking about you.
I can’t stop, I can’t stop thinking about you.
About you. About you.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

uncommittable

you were absent and played with one foot in, aware (you knew)
you’re just a selfish jerk and i was a fool
i saw the signs but trusted your words, they won (they did)
you’d bring me close to love, then give in

i’m sorry i never really let you in, i tried (i did)
i guess i haven’t changed, stuck in my old ways
i couldn’t put a stop to my mind, it won (it did)
giving up before i tried, that’s my mo, my mo, no no-

your love is incredible, my heart’s impenetrable
this cycle is old, this pattern’s run cold
and i’m still uncommittable

did you mean what you said when you looked in my eyes (all those nights)
you were so sure, then disappeared
i got caught up in the idea of what could become of us (but not serious)
i’m just a serial dater, that’s all I got, all I got, no no-

your love is incredible, my heart’s impenetrable
this cycle is old, this pattern’s run cold
and i’m so damn uncommittable

how do i give my heart away
when i constantly yearn to runaway
you’ll grow old and alone that way
you’ll always be the same, you can’t change

your love is incredible, my heart’s impenetrable
this cycle is old, this pattern’s run cold
and i’m still uncommittable

i’m so damn uncommittable

Thursday, November 6, 2014

sunday. (someday)


you walk into the  house
instant rush of devout.
you kneel and you pray
ohhhh, Sunday (Someday)

you pass the basket of greed
and you sip from the creed
and force your family
ohhhh, Sunday. (someday)

Cause we’re all sinners, sinners, sinners: in our own way
So quit preachin’, preachin’, preachin: cause I am gay
We need to repent, repent, repent: in our own way
(Close that book, and open your mind)
(Close that book, and open your mind)

you sip from the water
you deny your daughters
all in the his name
Ohhh, Sunday. (someday)

you pass judgment on me
misguided Christianity
You’re hypocrite tendencies
Ohhh, Sunday. (someday)

Cause we’re all sinners, sinners, sinners: in our own way
So quit preachin’, preachin’, preachin’: cause I am gay
We need to repent, repent, repent: in our own way
(Close that book, and open your mind)
(Close that book, and open your mind)

I quit praying for me, cause I’m praying for you
I don’t need to be cured, I don’t need to be prude
open your eyes, and take a look inside
I pray for the someday you’ll abandon your Sunday
abandon your Sunday…

Cause we’re all sinners, sinners, sinners: in our own way
So quit your preachin’, preachin’, preachin: cause I am gay
We need to repent, repent, repent: in our own way
(Close that book, and open your mind)
(Close that book, and open your mind)

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

helium

your lips on my lips (is toxic)
my hand gripping yours (is magic)
you fill my mind with fantasies
you got me wearing my heart on my sleeve
i gaze in your eyes like a black hole
my weakened grip and i’ve lost control -i’ve lost control

you raise me up, you get me high
and for a second, I’m in the sky
only to – come crashing down
i’m falling down

you’re helium
this temporary high
inflated state of mind
you’re helium, helium

my grin, your blank stare (foreshadows)
this void filled by void (answers)
you played your game mercifully
you got everything you wanted from me
the sad part is, I had caught on
But at that point, I was too far in -i was too far in

you raise me up, you get me high
and for a second, I’m in the sky
only to – come crashing down
i’m falling down

you’re helium
this temporary high
inflated state of mind
you’re helium, helium


you’re helium
this temporary high
inflated state of mind
you’re helium, helium

Monday, August 25, 2014

remission

I have moved on, I promise you
But like a beaten dog, I cower still
It was a long cycle, I suffered through
And I’m still feeling the effects

I want to trust you, I mean that
But understand I’m lacking it
I look at you but see his lies, shining through-
(So please be sensitive)

This elimination, termination of these lingering feelings
Is in order, to be unbiased and nurture our trusting
This separation, delegation of a new kind of feeling
Has been tainted and tested by the dark in my closet

He’s my cancer, in remission
My walls built up, my hair ripped out
Then you walked in and consoled me
But it often creeps back in
(So please be sensitive)

This elimination, termination of these lingering feelings
Is in order, to be unbiased and nurture our trusting
This separation, delegation of a new kind of feeling
Has been tainted and tested from the dark in my closet

He’s such a sickness, our ultimate nightmare
He’s like a python, with unpliable constriction
Please be my treatment, and help me transition
To put a stop on this ultimate remission

This elimination, termination of these lingering feelings
Is in order, to be unbiased and nurture our trusting
This separation, delegation of a new kind of feeling
Has been tainted and tested from the dark in my closet
from the dark in my closet…

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

East Coast Dreams

City of wonder
City of ancestry
I’m in love with your history
Buildings that tower
Buildings that breathe
I come to you and believe in-

East coast dreams,
East coast needs,
I crave your jazz melody
I want your cultural identity

Streets that wander
Streets with a pulse
I’d come to you to get lost
People are brothers
People are resilient
I get lost in your brilliance in-

East coast dreams,
East coast needs,
I crave your jazz melody
I want your cultural identity

Creator of liberties
Bestow onto me
All of your possibilities
As I run eastward-
Toward your welcoming city

East coast dreams,
East coast needs,
I crave your jazz melody
I want your cultural identity

Sunday, June 29, 2014

i dreamt about my ex


last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.
last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.

and I woke up- and I brushed it off, I walked it off
went about my day, I went about my day

it didn’t take long before the thought crept in
got my wheels turning, digging and uprooting

last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.
last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.

and I woke up, but the dream goes on, carries on
our fantasies replay in my mind, spinning on rewind

so now I reevaluate what went on, how we went wrong
thoughts and energy that shouldn’t live on

last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.
last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.

I was in your arms again
you held on tight-
we looked into our eyes again
passion filled
I went in for a kiss
and I woke up
I woke up-

last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.
last night, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my ex, I dreamt about my- ex.